For you, Daddy!

Granny,

dont know what to say.. so stresss-ed..
feel im abit off track at sometimes.
esp yesterday..
recently was doing fine, and getting stronger.
But something happened and caused my whole mind kanna'virus attacked'.

shit...my whole body cannot control my mind.
Whats wrong with me?
Wondering how's the rest of my classmates doing, guess im far apart from them now.
Although i started out the race first, but half way, i think i being blocked by some 'obstacles'.
I am very scare i will lose out the race and worst case even out of it.

I keep telling myself, i know my character, joe is not easily beaten.
Must Jia you!!

My mum quite worried abt me, recently i can see i being asked to eat 24 tablets each day.
Its to maintain a balance of myself.

This jan exam papers going be very important for me and everyone is looking onto it.
It determines my path.
There's a certain high level of stress and i cannot allow to fail.

This is a degree level and expectations are high. It requires us more on thinking and understanding.
Which is different from the diploma level.
So i need to apply different method of coping well on the exams.

funny part which i just realised, my colleagues can even open up side betting on my papers.
1st class- 1 pay 1000.
2nd upper and lower honour rate- 1 pay 100.
Fail rate- 1 pay 0.5.

hee guess most of them buy which part...,
i fainted...

Yesterday shldnt ve let them see im weak, moody.
But i cant control esp after i come back from lunch.
Things happened, nothing can change. Everything 's too late.

Drive very fast to another school, MDIS in the night and realised the people over there,comparing to my school kaplan, its so different. It brings me back to my poly days.

I need to get more info on understanding the economics. Hopefully i dont fall asleep again in e library carpet floor which those books on the shelves smiling at me..

nowadays i can sleep anywhere at anytime. Oh no really uncle joe liao..

I met up auntie cindy, she told me about my daddy story.
Ways back to when they are 18 yrs old.
Did not know he did so much for us, this family.
i am trying to control my feeling.

Granny, if you are there, please help me and give me this extra strength,i want to do well this paper for him.

For you, Daddy!

Regards,
Junwen