16th July gng in.....

well 16th july 2010 i will be going in sgh for my gastroscopy operation. At the same time i get to know my new blood test result before the op. To everyone is like a normal and fun friday, but no people will know at another corner still got people around suffering the pain. It will start at 4pm, a timing which i borned out. Will be in coma again. I hate this feeling, cos whenever i wake up, i really do not know where am i, am i in the real place? I am not sure whether do i need to stay in, see how it goes.
Although its a minor op but i think i am much worried is the result. As stated previously in my blog, doc already asked me to get prepare, stand by. Hopefully its not what the doc's prediction.

During this period, i've been doing many researchs on dyspepsia illness. I do not know why i keep seeing the word, cancer. Is it really true it is linked together? Can it dont be!
I have to face the fact if the result turns out like this. I have grown up already, gotta be brave to face everything. Maybe it is fate ba. Currently i trying to stay firm and calm, putting cheerful smiles around to everyone. Do not want anyone to know and worried about me, especially my parent. They will be super upset and cannot take it if they know.
I havnt told anyone including my family. They are getting old, do not want them to get worried.

Guess it is the same as 4 years back, an operation which i went through alone. It is like very scary when sitting alone at the seat waiting for my turn to go in. These few days it is like no mood to work and to study, but i still trying to give my best to do it.
Stress and feel alone.

a-l-o-n-e
isnt nice feeling..

Best regards,
Joe Sim