13th the black friday?

13th July 2009 late night

Well it has been a long time i am not here. Guess i am really busy running up and down for hospitals. I can say i am not very good in writing blog. Poor english command and always unhappy feeling writing on it.

Is it a black 13th the friday today?
I do not know the answer but i got a super bad day.

I am Lost.
I am Sad.
I am a super FAILURE!

Finally i told the truth to Grandpa when visiting Grandma.
Got a hard scolding by him.
I am wasting my time or giving myself excuses?

I let everyone down.

Well for Dad, he still want me to help him get that holy water.. And i am helping him.
I wondered am i helping or ___ ??
What should i do?

Worry Worries Worriezzzzz....

Talking to mum to help me console him not to drink, she gave up on him.
Well i told myself i will not going to give up easily even how much i hate for Dad since that feeling in my Primary 4.

I am glad he let me learn in another way to be a better man.
Dad, Believe me, i will try my best to help you.

God please dont let him stay in the hospital for so long... 3 weeks already..
Even the people in the H1N1 security section also know me well.

Seeing many flows inside this room 25, but just only Dad and an old man got held back.
I am very pity on that old man.
I did cry for him for a time.
His case is more worse, hardly can move his mouth. So all his meals are all depend on milk, just one type of food and it goes through the tube into his nose.

Soon or later i going be seriously sick as my movement always in, out hospitals and those viruses can easily attacked weak thinking person like me now.

World is not fair, good people suffer and bad people got what they want.
I am really very angry on someone who planned such a brillant plot on Grandpa (Dad's side).
Caused my Grandpa to be in this state.
I really hate people cheating, lie on me.
I dont want to get hurt again.

Haha my blogging this time is like a mess... guess this is what is in my mind now.

Today i saw Serina at sgh, didnt know she visiting her sister here.
Same block with my dad.
Such a small world to see her.
Her sister got injured badly and going for another round of operation soon.
Heard from Dad its a big news happened- many peoples got serious hurt in the coach accident.
The coach was on the way to malaysia-cameron and crashed into a big loader.
1 dead, 7 serious hurt need to send in A&E immediately.
And her sister is in the 7 people list.
Really hope her sister is okie and go thru well for this operation.

Time is getting late, yet still cannot sleep...
Impact too deep??

AHHHHHHHHhHhHhHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........
Feel like shouting now.
Guess tml going to ecp or west coast, a seaside to give myself a BIG SHOUT! OUT LOUD!!


Night,
Joe
14th july 2009 4:06am