Haha again dozed off on my table with the light is still on.
a stressful monday with our work design still do not match into the system level.
Resulting my dinner taken at late hours and returned home very late.
a quiet night today, can even hear a cricket snores haha..
Joe cannot get back to sleep..
suddenly Granny from Mohd Ali Lane came into my mind.
Recently went back to see my Granny again. Wondered how is she doing after did not go back for a long time.
Saw her sleeping place being occupied by a lamborghini.
Cannot believe it the owner cannot do his parking on nearby carpark and caused Granny unable to sleep there.
Whats being able to drive an expensive car with the $1 carpark fee cannot afford, i wondering??
As usual Granny is telling me many meaningful things which i keep learning again and again.
She said a value is hidden in myself.
Imagine a $10 note that crumpled and got dirty in the muddy water, yet still got people take it.
Why? No matter what you did to the money, you still want it because it did not decrease in value.
It happened to our lives too.
Many times in our lives, we fallen, crumpled or maybe ground into the muddy water by the decisions we make and the
circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But remember no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.
"Never let yesterday's disappointments overshadow tomorrow's dreams"
You are special!
Well said Granny,
One thumb up hee!
放心我对自己的未来有规划，再累也要自己面对
oh no 5am already, gotta get to sleep with later day going to work on that design again.. OH oh my gooooodnessss...
Nite Joe --'-,<@
26th july 2009 04:40 am
Studying.. researching... thinking....
Spending a little time doing something different, i feel worth it.
Something i promised myself and also for others.
SIM CHUN BOON Jia you!
--Updates--
---Daddy is back home sweet home but still under medical treatment.
I am fully responsible taking care of him.
Every night i need to rinse him with special water before he can sleep.
A long process with the difficulty of separating a piece of clear paper into two,
and mixed with the water and patch it on his body.
Sometimes the paper may tend to close-ed up itself after rinsing with water.
So ended up i need to re-do again to ensure it is in a perfect square shape.
The process maybe long but worth it as long as it helps Daddy.
I remembered a day when i being said badly by my First Auntie.
She wondered how come i am not there looking after my Dad in hospital.
I did not do any explanation as she did not know i went almost everyday.
Just nice that day she came, no one was there.
Was told by my brother a day before, he will be there, but nope.
Feeling was bad, hurt by her said which i think i did not do wrong.
Well i am touched by her when i realised she eventually went to do research on any cures, solutions for Dad.
She sent me a parcel of files last week. Inside was full of details on how to cure it.
Feeling my friends and even First Auntie are all worried about my Daddy.
I thought in this world i am the only one worrying about him.
TOUCHED.
Thanks Guys for the Supports and Concerns!
I may be going China for a walk. Recently met up a few friends and heard there is hope over there.
Currently also doing research on that.
Must find solution soon before the whole report come out on 28th August 2009.
---Recently something did come out on my mind strongly after i met up Evan in Ikea-Tampines.
I want to learn abit on cooking.
He become one of the chef in fullerton hotel.
Feel so proud for him that he got what he want.
Last time in poly we always complaint about engineering haha..
Sad part is i am still here, really so listening to my parent.
Wonder when can i get that luck to go out to give it a try without letting my parent down.
Learning cooking reason is that i can reduce my mum workload. She need to cook two sets of dishes everytime for us and Daddy. And she still need to work, so tiring for her.
And also in the future my wife can get to try my yummy food hee.
---I may want to go for a break after thinking back, this whole year i did not travel at all. Zero record first time.
Doing research for good cheaper prices. Wow i am quite tempted by the jet star promotions.
One promo is the two ticket to taiwan only $300 plus. Oh my goodness, so cheap!
Let see who is the lucky country i am going to say hi hee.
--- 20th july 2009 Monday
ST electronics- SATCOM AND SENSORS is in the new company now. Welcome to upper paya lebar!
I am still not used to it. Missed Jurong East.
Food and transport wise are perfectly fine.
Gng up is Amk, Gng down is Bedok, Gng left is Toa Payoh, Gng right is Tampines.
The four wonders of good food places are within our location hee.
I just need 5mins to reach my workplace from home.
Saved up alot on petrol.
Hopefully i can settle down fast on this new environment.
0600am wonder how come the sky still dark. Is it Mr Sun 's alarm not working??
Well cannot see the sun rise today.
Joe is yawning.
Time to sleep before need to bring my parent for breakfast later at 0900am.
Tata..
13th July 2009 late night
Well it has been a long time i am not here. Guess i am really busy running up and down for hospitals. I can say i am not very good in writing blog. Poor english command and always unhappy feeling writing on it.
Is it a black 13th the friday today?
I do not know the answer but i got a super bad day.
I am Lost.
I am Sad.
I am a super FAILURE!
Finally i told the truth to Grandpa when visiting Grandma.
Got a hard scolding by him.
I am wasting my time or giving myself excuses?
I let everyone down.
Well for Dad, he still want me to help him get that holy water.. And i am helping him.
I wondered am i helping or ___ ??
What should i do?
Worry Worries Worriezzzzz....
Talking to mum to help me console him not to drink, she gave up on him.
Well i told myself i will not going to give up easily even how much i hate for Dad since that feeling in my Primary 4.
I am glad he let me learn in another way to be a better man.
Dad, Believe me, i will try my best to help you.
God please dont let him stay in the hospital for so long... 3 weeks already..
Even the people in the H1N1 security section also know me well.
Seeing many flows inside this room 25, but just only Dad and an old man got held back.
I am very pity on that old man.
I did cry for him for a time.
His case is more worse, hardly can move his mouth. So all his meals are all depend on milk, just one type of food and it goes through the tube into his nose.
Soon or later i going be seriously sick as my movement always in, out hospitals and those viruses can easily attacked weak thinking person like me now.
World is not fair, good people suffer and bad people got what they want.
I am really very angry on someone who planned such a brillant plot on Grandpa (Dad's side).
Caused my Grandpa to be in this state.
I really hate people cheating, lie on me.
I dont want to get hurt again.
Haha my blogging this time is like a mess... guess this is what is in my mind now.
Today i saw Serina at sgh, didnt know she visiting her sister here.
Same block with my dad.
Such a small world to see her.
Her sister got injured badly and going for another round of operation soon.
Heard from Dad its a big news happened- many peoples got serious hurt in the coach accident.
The coach was on the way to malaysia-cameron and crashed into a big loader.
1 dead, 7 serious hurt need to send in A&E immediately.
And her sister is in the 7 people list.
Really hope her sister is okie and go thru well for this operation.
Time is getting late, yet still cannot sleep...
Impact too deep??
AHHHHHHHHhHhHhHhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........
Feel like shouting now.
Guess tml going to ecp or west coast, a seaside to give myself a BIG SHOUT! OUT LOUD!!
Night,
Joe
14th july 2009 4:06am
02-07-09 Thursday cloudy
There are many decisions i need to make during this period. I am afraid i will make the wrong choice.
--Why i had to make this decision by myself?
Wonder when will Daddy recover fully?
He had been sleeping alone every night at Singapore General Hospital. All of us are worried about him.
--Is e virus so strong to cure?
I realised there are many things that my Daddy did not tell me until today i heard his condition from the doctor. Guess he is worried about us, that is why he is keeping it to himself.
--Why he had to do that?
As the elder of the family, i need to be strong and firm as i know the whole family need me now.
God, please give me some energy.
--Why am i so weak?
Granny suffered a fall today during her exercise walk.
Blood keep coming out from her body non stop.
Struggled herself in Alexandra Hospital.
Thanks to You.
A no manner, no patient guy caused my Granny to be like that.
Hate you till max!
--Why is it another blow to me?
Today went to see my dad, after awhile i need to rush over another side to see my Granny.
It is like from one hospital to another hospital.
Guess what, it is my first time to lost my way although i am a good Road Directory.
Instead of going to Alexandra hospital, i went to Thomson hospital.
Oh my goodness, do not know what my mind is thinking.
--Why am i so depressed?
Memory loss again?
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