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So similar...

There is always a beginning.

It was beautiful and smooth, bring me alot of future thinking and expectation but hiccup will occur out of a sudden.

Very true, totally depicts what i went through. I know this time round, it is going be tough. You are not me, you have no idea how hurtful it was on me, but i have to brace through all alone. Too heavy on me. Days passed by in a daze. I live these days without having much recollection of what happened, each day passed by and i cant really remember what had happened the day before. Memory loss i tink. If only i can just erase the whole chunk of memory or better still, i will turn back time and not gone for that operation at all.

Ah ma gone and i did not have the chance to see for her last look.

This period i have been very down, my spirits can never be lifted up, how am i going regain my positivity? The kinda want very much to cry yet cant cry, it is even more tormenting. I can feel my dad's pain and he need us now, together strongly to show him the concern and care. Something is missing whereby my brother dont feel it. He does not know it at all, creating unneccessary problem for us.

A word kept flashing into my mind recently, immature. Seeing many things going on which i cannot stand it, why they did or think of such silly things? Colleagues, friends and even my brother...why? I feel i cannot communication with them anymore.

Whatever i want, i can never get in life-- NEVER! i cannot understand why. Did i had such bad karma in my previous life that i have to suffer this.

Granny (Mohamed ali lane ) say must know how to wash yourself, to bring the purity to life. Not every knots cannot be tangled off. Need to respect each other then everyone will live peacefully. She said no need to change for others, without any anger is good. Be myself to have such a good character, others will envious they dont have.

Well it has affect my work for one whole month. I cannot concentrate at work. I cannot work to my optimum lvl. It is pulling me down.
Tomorrow i am going to DSO, national laboratories to do some research and testing. Going be a hard week for me where i need to have a clear mind first.

I feel like giving up on this coming sat, 06/06' final competition, lack of supports and the morale is low. Well i hope to recover on that day immediately to perform my best, cannot afford to let this championship cup slipping off to other teams.

Happiness is something we must fight for and not wait for it to drop by. Some are lucky, happiness is always around them. As such, they dont value happiness as much. But for us who aint lucky enough, then we have to fight for it and do something about it. Rather than wait and mourne, happiness will never occur on us. Similarly, misery is not something we have to wait for it to disappear. It is something we have to get rid of. It is again dependent on ourselves to get rid of misery and not let it spoils the whole of us. Like the saying goes, a rotten apple if left unattended will spoil the whole basket of good apples. Just the same as misery, if we leave it unattended in us, it will only cause more misery in us. So i have decided, i will fight for my own happiness and get rid of my misery. Rather than indulge in self pity and self questioning about certain happenings. Things happen for a reason, they always do. If it happens not to your liking, be glad that it happened earlier than later. If things happen according to your plans, embrace it with gratefulness. No one can give me the happiness i want except myself because it is me myself who will determine to live happily or sadly.No one can cause more misery than myself because it is again myself who will allow the misery to set deeply in. I believe one day i have my own happiness to share and be proud of.

Dad not matter how hard you go through,

Daddy i ♥ u
Always..

Speedy Recovery!

Loves,
Joe Sim

Get Well Soon Okie

Feeling lost.. went back to Mohamed ali lane to look up for Granny again. Sometimes u will expect something different from her. She speaks from her heart-true and simple. It smoothens my feeling and open up my mind.

Heard many stories from friends saying their dads are not good or something. But something happened to my dad. He is really a good dad taking care of us, this family. Why god must ill treat him like that, given him this illness whereby he is such a nice, helpful guy. He does not smoke, no drink, faithful to my mum, hardworking. But why.. why.. why...

These few weeks i can see he is getting weaker and tired. I do not know how to response to it.
Feel like saying out to you guys, my close friends asking how, what should i do?
Sorry kept telling nothing happened, always putting a smiling mask on it.
Well it affected my mood on work. Took many mc 's and leave 's recently. I am afraid boss will look into it, my performance. Got to work hard now, if not i cannot meet the deadline.

Darren, Ivy, Donn, Alex, Jason, Ivy, Nick, Xin Xuan, Queky, Karen, Huey Min, Jasmine, Birdie, Nancy, Weijie, SoonMing, Henry, Chan, Clarence, Dawn, Esabelle
-Thank you very much for cheering me up, listening to me, helping me.

I will try to be happy, gain back my confidence and be myself okie.

Well its getting late, 2am plus.
Hope i can sleep now after saying everything out.
Wish me a good week start ahead.

Loves,
Joe

**Starry Starry night**

so many stars in the sky today... haiz..

How i wish in this world, everyone is friendly and easy going.. sometimes i wonder money really so important to everyone? Because of money, it make this world so ugly. You can see evil guys coming out. I remember ah ma always want me to know how to write this word, Simple. It is simple, with nothing inside but the contents is peaceful. To be a sim family people with simple mind, everything will go smoothly, no worries, no stress. You will not meet up any funny things or bad guys causing/plotting problem on you.

Ah ma, how i wish i am that country mouse -(country mouse and the town mouse). I really cannot find myself belong to this town. so Hard to breathe inside there.
I love to see you and ah gong in the farm. Growing all kinds of vegetables, still remember the funny chillis you planted. Ended up i ate the wrong one, so hot for me. Pond fishing with many little black tadpoles swimming around. Interesting frogs life cycle story you told me. And the funny chicken farm, always had many great fights with the chickens for collecting the eggs. And during one time, i lost. In the process, i got a deep cut on my right knee. Ended up the scar is still there. Love the part during evening, we always run to the airport runaway seeing many planes flying off. So sweet the scenery with the background of the pinkie sunset!
I remember i told myself i wanted be like them one day, flying around seeing the whole world.
Still remember Miss Foo Moi Lee, my primary school teacher praised me, saying my knowledge and passion on planes are so strong, my dream will come true.

Hey Thanks Alex for bringing me to T3 recently which all these while i never been before.
All the little memories bound back into my mind.

Work, work and work, i dont know how much efforts and researches i have put into it, the Modules still dont come out good. Deadline is close, i dont know how to make it work on the design? Help me! I think i really dont have that engineering talent.

This period how i wish to have you friends support and warm concerns.

Wish me luck on my application, hope to get in NIE in july.
And sorry Mum, i didnt update my april process, will load up soon these few days when i am free. I think the dinner on june will be on me liao.

Anyway,
Happy Mum Day!

..Lost and Found..

Today, my topic is lost and found.
Recently, a series of incidents has happened in my family, friends and works.
And i thought i lost it.
All the laughter and happiness that used to be around me.
Luckily, that is these bros.
They have been putting in so much effort in pulling me back together.
And they are Donn, Alex and Darren.
Sometimes, i think they are strange guys.
I always nagging at them for many things.
But to me, they are like my DAD.
During the stress and down period they will give me a hug.
Just like yesterday night i went into boozer land after a bad day at work.
There was nothing inside but to me, its content is love.
From now on, i wish to receive their hugs every year, every month.
No, everyday.
Because i know them will bring me love and happiness.

Loves,
Ah Boon