Such a disappointment!!!

i failed my exam!
didnt know it came out so fast on the sunday.

My mood already not there when i know i didnt do well for my presentation.
To make thing more worst, exam result released out in the night.
How will a normal person take it such a blow at the same time.
Spending so much time on doing my presentation, even given up my long waited marathon yet received such a disappointment.

When this time round i am looking up for my good friends for listening ear, no one is there.
All never pick up my call on sunday.
i cant believe it.
are you guys playing fun on me or is it gods you?
even ask them out, no one can make it on any day.
do u guys believe it, so coincidence.
all of them push it on coming sunday.

am i asking too much?
or am i still behave like a baby, need many attention?
why cant i behave like some of my guy friends, simply dont care anything.

feel like giving up hope on friends and be myself alone.
Yes i know everyone is busy but somehow should be able to spare a little time when a friend there need accompany.
does anyone know recently i just realised something, a secret.
all these years since poly, i didnt know my such guy friend cheated on me again and again.
why he needs to do that, he really do not know how to treasure friendship but just to make use of people.
seeing him hurting on me when i put so much time and hope on friends, yet i got this kind of result.

anyway forget it, i just go out on my own this week.
do my hiking, take a seabreeze or whatever.
have my dinner with my ye ye and forget it, no need to make myself so hard to make an appointment with friends.