Merry Christmas Everyone!

Yeah its a nice Christmas which i didnt expect it to be in this way.
Very Different.

Went through Jason and Xiuling pre early xmas house party celebration, Marvellous!
I enjoyed max although its simple.
-turkey once again the main problem of cooking and cant finish it.
-finally we met up Peiying and her new bf plus Sianming, (many years didnt see them at all).
-More people this time as both sides of the group mergering together for celebration.
-like being a planner and satisfied on my explanation for the game to go fun and wild!
-brought a good interesting card game, Swap!
too bad didnt got time to try on my taboo and polarbear game.
-Gift exchange which i didnt expect to be from Mark, unique groovy guitars ice cube tray.
-surprise part, extra gift from Jason and Xiuling.
I got a bright yellow notebook, cool!
-Overall great to make new friends.

Another xmas party at the actual eve day which i planned didnt go smoothly as many things did happen at my close friends side.
-Someone passed away at such a young age.
Depression.
Didnt expect to turn out in this way.
Everyone is down.
-Two couples didnt have a good time with each other, spending their day to solve it themselves.
-Cancelled the party.
- In the end it turns out in another way for my celebration.
-Just hope this period everyone is back and together like usual.

Everyone is curious on how come this period i didnt talk much about her, NTU.
Haha i am not angry with her or avoiding her (MIA).
Maybe she thought it is the sat dinner issue but it is not.
I did have a little disappointment when i called her up one of the day, she didnt even respond and reply back.
Can see from there onwards not much news from her.
haha maybe she is running away from me or angry on me.
or maybe busy with her dating (someone whom she is very active in her sms).
I will respect her decision on how she wants it to go, its herself.
I did not think much at all this time and just let my mind be freely run.
Not like last time, i take it very seriously, keep asking around what should i do.
Maybe caused by the REBORN.
-I didnt tell anyone i almost have an accident on 09th Dec 2010.
-I may just go in a sec.
-scary.
-no alcohol at all.
-very tired after work plus late dinner.
-eyes keep closing while driving.
-without realising the car speed keeps increasing from 120km/hr..130..140...
-almost going to bang into another car.
-suddenly applying ebrake thus created such a terrible loud noise and smoke also.
-company van losts control and occupied horizontally along TPE lane 1 and lane 2.
-created such an impact on me, realised something.
-do not know how to describle it.
-just say its a Reborn.

I am thinking of giving a thought on trying out charity works.
Heard from Jason and Xiuling mentioned Ry know about it, may wants to find it out more from her and do something meaningful.
Firstly need to check out on the schedule of their duties and from then work it out on my timing to fix it well and smoothly.

I received a call from Uncle, it was not a good call.
Maybe i will talk it more on the next bloging.

Merry Christmas to everyone!

Such a disappointment!!!

i failed my exam!
didnt know it came out so fast on the sunday.

My mood already not there when i know i didnt do well for my presentation.
To make thing more worst, exam result released out in the night.
How will a normal person take it such a blow at the same time.
Spending so much time on doing my presentation, even given up my long waited marathon yet received such a disappointment.

When this time round i am looking up for my good friends for listening ear, no one is there.
All never pick up my call on sunday.
i cant believe it.
are you guys playing fun on me or is it gods you?
even ask them out, no one can make it on any day.
do u guys believe it, so coincidence.
all of them push it on coming sunday.

am i asking too much?
or am i still behave like a baby, need many attention?
why cant i behave like some of my guy friends, simply dont care anything.

feel like giving up hope on friends and be myself alone.
Yes i know everyone is busy but somehow should be able to spare a little time when a friend there need accompany.
does anyone know recently i just realised something, a secret.
all these years since poly, i didnt know my such guy friend cheated on me again and again.
why he needs to do that, he really do not know how to treasure friendship but just to make use of people.
seeing him hurting on me when i put so much time and hope on friends, yet i got this kind of result.

anyway forget it, i just go out on my own this week.
do my hiking, take a seabreeze or whatever.
have my dinner with my ye ye and forget it, no need to make myself so hard to make an appointment with friends.