Really feel everyone is not there

to me friends are important.
Loanshark also let me realised it when that time i almost going to give up hope.

I really feel everyone is not there, together.
whenever comes to an important day, i am sure someone is going to be missing.
It is hard for everyone to be here together.
I thought this kind of day is good for catching up, updates.
Feel disappointed.
I rather everyday is just a normal day to me, do not want any holiday at all.
whats wrong couples cannot meet up together?
Busy is really the main reason?

maybe i need to give myself a tight slap, why bother to spend so much time on friends issues when my important stuffs didnt really go and do.
Xiuling and Jason will be disappointed when i didnt focus on my objective again.