something running on my mind

actually in this world everyone got their own unhappiness or things that they are troubled.
They normally like to keep it to themselves.Why do they need to do it in a different way to show them they are okay but in fact they are not.
Do you think drinking will really let you forget everything?
Do you think to keep yourself busy will let you forget also?
Do you think sitting along the beach looking at e waves will let you forget too?
There is really no correct answer for it..
If you feel like giving it a cry out, can you dont put a smile on it.
why must you show it to others that you are strong outside in fact you are not.
everyone sure got their weakness.
I thought i am the one weaker in this area, yet i realised in this world, i am not the one.
Cry is an purity element i saw till today, inside consist of so many feelings...can be happy, sad, touch..
Cry is the relieve of energy and emotion.
you will have that very different feeling when you see e people cry.
especially the tear that come out from the eyes.
well everyone has grown up, you know the way of what to do.
a fall, must know how to climb up
a loss, must know how to recover back
a break, must know how to paste back
a stress-ed, must know how to desserts back
make more friends, and you surely know the feeling of having friends around.
can together eat meal, can together chatting
although i do not know anything, sometimes give people a laugh at me
but to their laughter, i also feel happy ah
better than dont have any friends right?
Dont have friends is like very lonely and sad.

well above mentioned does not talk about me or anyone, i am okay, everyone is okay.
scare you guys worried about me.
Its just a deep thought running on my mind when i am doing my reading.

Happy Birthday Darren!!

Finding ways to relieve my stress.
Feeling like increasing/ piling every now and then. Although its quite childish or girlish for a guy to get those finger dolls. But i just dont care. I must do things that i am happy and feel okay with it.
I still dont understand how many things Cyclone has covered under the table which i need to do. I am going to be mad soon. Staying late for work almost everyday since last week. I do not know where to find time to do my school work. Oh no.. Joe gotta be firm, there sure be a way!

Among all the bad news surrounding me this period, finally i got a piece of good news which i got it from yesterday. Someone brought a ring. Oh my goodness!! Nobody will expect who is it. Cannot wait for the big day to come hee..

Okay today going to take a break, putting aside the paper work to give Darren a surprise Birthday Party.
Never regret knowing him, a good bro, always at my side. Although i keep complaining to him teaching me all the funny bad things..oops sorry haha... i still know where i stand. Thank you for your caring and morale support. I grown up and learnt alot.

His party going to be a special one with Ivy and me doing all the planning. No people going to expect what is it. Haha i am sure he will get shock for such a special arrangement.

Darren, better remember this day and my $100 present.

Happy 29th Birthday!

Time to cheer up,

Bye,

Joe

Granny @(Mohd. Ali Lane) with many loves -----'-,-<@

Mum is leaving today for taiwan.
Hope this trip she can really enjoy max and take a good break. I am quite pity for her as she suffered alot for this family. Recently i feel my brother is unreasonable, torturing her alot. This issue caused me very headache solving it and with many other issues also coming out concurrently, i feel my whole self become 'Chen Zhong' and not so hyper like last time. Bearing many loads and responsibilities.

Happened to go to ikea yesterday and got myself these cute finger softtoys (animal dolls). I given every dolls a name of my best friends. Feeling whenever i am stress-d or trouble-d, will get to talk to them with my finger controlling their active movement.
Hee another easy way of relaxing my mind, and at all times feeling my friends are there for me (24hrs standby).

I given a name to this special doll called Granny, e lion.
Lion represents the characteristic of strong, firm and independent. I feel proud to know Granny. She can be a person that can live herself well in such an environment by herself alone. With her pride, she will not want anyone to help her and also firm on her thinking. She taught me alot during this short period esp. given me a strong mind to live well.

I understood e good and bad plus the black and white.

She also said growing up living in a difficult environment helped teach the person the secrets of being a successful person. She wanted me to have a practical psychological education into the minds of people, not often that a boy of five or six is always living with parents in a little house/kampong. Must learned about tactics and selection from the people talking.

Granny, thanks! I will not disppoint you.
One thing to tell you i quitted one of my bad habit and i am feeling much better now.
Too late to share it with you.

p/s: still believe she always at my side, supporting me.

Love,
Joe Sim

My Resolution for 2010

Joe sim 's resolution for year 2010,

1. Studying hard to achieve my degree
2. showing a right working attitude in my career
3. improve my fundamental skills
4. change naturally to be a good character

-- be decisive
-- firm
-- strong command and thinking

5. showing more care to my parents

Will not want to bring or cause disappointment to myself, my parents, my surrounding friends and lastly not least my Granny.

Working hard towards my goals!

cheers,
Joe

Air is HEAVY for me?

Just finished another meeting.

Recently everyone in the company does not feel okay, including me.

Do not understand a striking occurrence of two or more cases happened at one time apparently by mere chance.

You can hear ‘notebook’, this word from everyone’s mouth.

Is it too careless?

I feel bad for my colleagues, the losing case greatly affected their performance and year-long bonus. Don’t think there will be any promotion for them.

Its quite a serious case as the notebook containing many classified and co-confidential documents.

One thing is how can a notebook lost inside the lab which our security is so tight.

All these years there was no such case happened until we moved here, our new home.

Boss YK says, it is not a matter of lost but its that we lost our defence business.

Giving our customer a no trust, how will they let us handle their project next time.

Haiz my works are piling up due to Cyclone has shifted out for another project and my next colleague was on a long leave. Its like every day I am running up and down for two major projects by myself.

My question mark '?' is getting bigger whenever I go through every new chapter of my coursebook.

But its good to see I am sitting down at a corner pushing myself, reading it.

Just need time on this new area.

Sorry guys to keep me accompany for these few nights. I am controlling and will not let my tears down. I am sure Granny does not want to see me like that. Maybe I just need a little time.

Sorry to scare everyone off when talking to you guys so serious. That’s really how I feel now and that’s me!

Still cannot accept the fact that Granny left.

Love,
Joe

心肝寶貝

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