its my mind that change..

Actually things didnt change, its the mind that change. Maybe i have grown up, the things that i look will be differently, at different angle that i want.

Seeing my age coming to 30 soon, i am seriously worried about my career and my family. They are getting old and i know my current job has reached a peak, i told myself i want to keep on processing myself up. I want to earn even more to give myself,my future wife and my parents a better life.

I do not want people seeing me like playing around, having fun but actually they did not understand me well. I am working very hard now improving my current states. I am serious on my career advancement, i really do not want to be an useless guy sitting there only.
There is no need to explain to anyone who is still thinking i am still playing around. Let them be, well my side i just know what i am doing will do.

a month ago, i met a son of his mother at a guan yin's temple nearby. I do not know her but we are like very 'click-ed', chatted alot about life. She is worried about his son about his safely, every night cannot sleep well. His son 's interest is in bikes, from a small one changed to a bigger one. The speed limit increases. Every time his mum will not sleep first until she see him back home safely. From there, it linked my mind to something.

I feel that we must treasure our life and also do not let people around us worried.
Well everyone sure got thing to regret doing or not doing but tell yourself our life can only live once, must learn to forgive and forget,live happily to max!
And i also try to be home often, i do not want my mum also worried about me.

Well over this period, i did not share much with anyone about my worries. I feel the situation i should solve it by myself. I have grown up, time to be independent, thinking what is right for me. I should be the one doing the decision.

Joe
25th June 2010
241am end.

a message for loanshark...

10th june 2010 thursday

Loanshark,

still remember i told you about the little nus, which this nickname was given by you.

I finally saw her.

But not i dated her out.

Did not know the world is so small, i saw her at ps when i was doing for my graphic papers shopping.

Quite amazing i can know who is her from far.
Shu Shu really good at recognise people hor ;)

Thinking back, actually i wont have this chance to see her.
at some point i still hesitate of going ps to do shopping alone.
So at the right time, right angle and right position, i saw her.

She looked elegant.
Shu Shu still cannot make it, ultimate shy, i did not approach her and say hi.
Haha i think you can ask me to knock against a wall.

She fly off already on 15th June 2010 Tuesday, summer break at united states.
Wondering how long will she be back?

wish her have a good trip and have fun there.

Cheers,
Joe

Finally im back :)

HiHi i am back, wow i didnt know i have been MIA for such a long time..

hee finally settled everything and i feel glad to be here writing..

during that period, there is some up and down.
Well everything i have put aside and turn in to a new direction,
my main aim now is cherish friends around.
these two months, i got back almost all the friends that never contact for long.
Didnt know so much changes on them.
Yeah it is true, friends around built u up.
I need you all.

well after some time of missing out, i do not think there are people here reading my blog now.
Maybe only those loyal fans of mine will read up ba..
hee can a show of hand who is still reading it?
wish to know...

today i wrote up a total of 3 blogs together.
firstly is my intro.
secondly impt is my health and checkup.
followed by getting an impt friend back.

cheers,
joe

my checkup

3th june 2010,

i finally went in sgh to do my medical checkup and consultation.

Spending the day doing a new full blood test, gotta wait for the report to be out first before i can proceed on the scope operation.

i have fixed a much nearer date, 16th july 2010 to have the scope check.

Thank you very much for all my good friends wishes, regards and accompany.
i feel touched but do not know why in somehow i feel very down also.

actually i missed a part which i didnt tell anyone of you.
do not want anyone to know and worried about me.
the doctor actually asked me to be prepare, maybe its due to family medical history.
and i think i know what she is hinting at...

I really do not want this to be happen.

I keep telling myself everything will be fine on me, such a good lad wont have that illness one.
I gotta put a smiling face on it okie

pray me healthy alwayz

joe :)

Happy Birthday to YOU :)

i thought i wont be meeting her again.

and i feel grateful to celebrate her birthday this year.

wishing her everyday happy and healthy alwayz..

i feel much better now.

thank you her for giving me this chance to meet.

i know i expressed wrongly that time, actually i didnt mean it in that way.

hope she understand it.

sorry, i really do not have the courage to tell her.

Really want to treasure this time, she is really a good friend to me.

I do not want to lose her anymore.

sincerely,

Joe