my Best Shot! Bang.. Bang..

Dear Granny,

5 more days to go..

Management of Organisations will be my first paper.

I will give it my Best!

After giving myself a little short break during the weekend, attended my good friend, ivy’s birthday! Time to let my mind to get back to study again.

I felt this break is necessary for me, thanks Ivy and Darren!
Recently went back Chinatown a few times, esp. mohd ali lane again. Didn’t know Ivy intro us her homeground dishes, si chuan at a Chinese restaurant, gu xiang in smith street. Hee Chinatown again. She is quite a good host, telling us a lot about the dishes names. The warm feeling brings us back to hometown, ‘jia xiang’, having dinner with our families. One thing I realized every dishes contain a lot of oil and its really spicy..hot hot..
Got one dish whereby u gets to see green chilies cut into slices and mixed with oil. Oh is this consider as a dish..? so Unique and overall I give a thumb up, Yummy!

We have a little chill out later, fun with many shots and lychee martinis filled the whole table. And it’s a special day with someone on hen night. Very funny and creative that the sisters bring her around to get along with all those guys, and we can see she is very shy with her pinky rabbit’s marriage costumer. And one sa bo method was to let her go around to have a kiss with anyone, and she will get $10 per person. Haha funny idea right? Well not a bad catch, she raised $380 for it. Hee it’s a fun night after such a long time staying back for studies.

Am I dreaming again?

Granny, I am still not feeling well. Can see my stress level did not control properly and not to let too many people worry, I show it to everyone that I am perfectly okay. To my surprise, I got myself a deep cut on my left eye a few days ago. Blood keep flowing throughout the whole night.
It was happened inside a dream first. I remembered I was running toward my graduation group photo taking . Seeing my best seat going to be taken by someone, I increased my speed and “ BONG”, I banged myself into a wall. Sleeprunning!!? Oh my goodness, I fainted. When I woke up in the morning, realized i got a cut. Haha.. was so funny that I can run in the reality world when I am actually inside the dream.

These few days, thank you very much to my colleagues. They did a lot of help for me, especially my report.
We can stay till nearly 2am and helping me without any condition. Thanks Calvin and the rest!

Till today I received a lot of my friends, colleagues of their regards and their best wishes. They all wanted me to do well on my papers. Oops pressure pressure.. cannot let them down. I will give my best shot!

Today before I left for a super long leave, I received an amazing present, super late Christmas gift and a card. I found the card very meaningful; he realized I changed this period. With all the time I have been keep saying I will change. Just need abit of time, and I proved it to everyone. Feeling very touched and warmed.. I will still keep up the good work!

Jia You!

Joe Sim

a brand new year, 2010

Dear Granny,

It is a year of 2010 now.
Didn’t know time files so fast, when that time I was 20 doing a countdown for a special year of 2000. I still remembered Singapore aimed to get into the world cup. But from all these years, it is like still far from achievement. World cup is coming soon, do hope my favorite country, England win it.

Many things I will like to share with you, just like we used to chat, sitting along the canal pathway with your nice cardboards on our butts. Funny thing is we keep looking at the opposite side, whereby the Japanese having their wine at the jap. Restaurant, while we were having our Chinese tea. I missed those days. All these while I am doing fine with exam are coming soon. There will be two papers on the 17th and 24th of January. After 1.5 yrs of resting, it will be my first major paper to sit for it. I looking toward to challenge it but currently I am quite worried about the time. Counting down, it is like 14 more days left. When I need more time, there is a problem on my sleeping. This period I tend to sleep more and more. I am wondering why I cannot be last time, sleep only 4hrs a day. Is it old people tend to sleep more? But I did ask around, hearing people do say in the opposite way. Mum told me maybe my body is tired, need more rest. I started to drink bitter coffee now to keep myself awake and also with lots of mum given pills. Sometimes I am wondering am I sick, why I have to take so many pills? Haha.. Currently I am afraid one of my module, Economics. It is totally new to me, but I find it interesting comparing to engineering which I studied before. It provides me with many knowledge of knowing what is happening outside the world and I will like to know more. But the pace of my degree is too fast, without much time for me to explore. Hopefully next time when I am free, I will like to find out more.

It is a beautiful Sunday today. Sitting inside the library, I can see the warmth and soothing sun smiling at me outside the window panel. I started to like our national library, a good place which I want to visit more often. Nowadays my colleagues still find it hard to believe I am studying whenever I am free , they thought I will be inside somewhere chilling out, more on clubbing. But I wondering why they cannot really understand me more without listening to people anyhow spread the rumor. I hate people without evidence and anyhow say a person. I strongly believe it will hurt a person or his image badly. I admit I did club a lot when I first started out on my age 25. But everything is a past now, I seriously find it useless to spend time there clearing my emo. Well I feel too tired to explain to anyone and decided to focus just on my things. I believe one or these days, they will understand. Guess only close friends will know what is happening around me recently. Ever since you left, i will never want to spend the time wrongly and regret in the end.

Spending long hrs in the library, I started to build friends around with the librarians, especially level 8-business floor. One of them said life is so much different now, our living standard. I did not know their paid is so little and have to work for long hrs- 12hrs+1hrs. They wanted me to study hard and achieve it well on my career. Both of us also agreed that Chinese tend to give birth to one or two child nowadays, whereby Malays will be different, like to give birth more. She told me last time some Malays can give out up to 20 children per family. Oh my goodness, I wondered how the family will survive if it is now. She is a kind easy going person. Normally when I am stress, will go and find her for a little chat. Oh she even told me the management in the library is horrible. You know what; the drinking cooler at the basement level is spoilt. Till now they have not change the filter. Oh it can cause serious problem for the people that drink it. So scary!

Miss you very much.
I promised I still stick closely to my resolution for this year. I want to be a better man.

Once again please protect me, wish me luck on whatever I am doing.

Cheers,
Joe