Thought of the Moment

My colleague wife's Dad didnt make it on last friday.
Struggled and then..

all the while we have been talking about him and also my Dad.
Cos both of them are having the same type of illness..

I am getting worried now.
Guess its part of our life that we will face this stage.
How i wish i am still in the 1st stage whereby i am in my primary school canteen eating my fishballs.

Haiz..

Wondering my research on asparagus and organic vegetables will help Dad?
checked out with the US national Cancer institute that asparagus is the highest tested food
containing glutathione, which is considered one of the body's most potent anticarcinogens and
antioxidants.

hmmm... hope what they told me its true.

My mood was affected.
But i keep telling myself i need to get my mind back to work.
Must stick close to my previous plan.

Ot-ed.. ot-ed..
Many late nights, hardly can sleep.

Guess nobody knows i am actually facing some internal emo.
Drinking wines these few nights along the swimming pool, hope to get some good sleep later.


Can Cyclops show some concern to me or not?
Always spoilt my early part of my working day.
Do not know why i keep seeing him in office everywhere.
Whenever see him, sure got different funny 'pushing' tasks from him.
ahhhh i need peace!
I really do not like his managing ways on work, so messy.
Heard he is attached out for another project soon, no more in charge of my one.
Hee guess customer complaint.?

Wish this day comes fast.
i want to do my usual planning, to push my project up to another level.

Well good news is i got it, the $2 million deal of my project.
Thanks DSO for supporting me and ST!
And also other colleagues for helping me to get into 2nd in position,
in term of profits for all projects.

Congrats!
But to me, i am not happy with it, do not know why.
Just many thoughts on my mind.
But i know i had been given alot out on work recently.
Well still early to say, there re still many things for me to learn and do.

I had a talk with my manager last week to discuss my future.
It was a casual meeting whereby we can also share our problem.

He told me my spirit must be there.
And ask me to learn from this dance group in the Britain's got talent 2009- Diversity: Dance Act.
All of them are engineers but they got their dreams, they go for it and work hard.
Result paid off.
and you can see they did alot for their final.
Excellent!

I guess i know his meaning,
he is okay with my career roadmap.
Given me green light
to give myself a good try out.

Jia You Joe!

to cut or not to cut ??

Result's out.

Dont know what to say..
It's easier to believe
that brings me to my knees.

i need some distraction
or a beautiful release

Let me be empty and weightless
from this dark cold room

i need an angel's arm
may i find some comfort

Silent alone...